calmThrough the course of the conversation I asked Tara why she waited until until after she and Nancy broke up for good to call me to exchange our stuff.
"Well, I meant to do it several times over the last few months," she answered. "But I kept putting it off and putting it off. Mostly because I felt really bad about how I treated you."
"Do you think if you and I didn't still have some of each other's things that you'd have ever called me anyway?" I asked.
"I've asked myself that same question," she sighed. "Probably, but I know I was worried about how you'd have reacted. I know that I hurt you pretty badly and so I figured I'd call you to exchange our stuff, which was a good enough reason to call. I'm really sorry for what I did. I admit, I had total tunnel vision when it came to Nancy. I should never have gotten involved with you like that in the first place because I definitely wasn't in a strong enough position and that wasn't fair to you."
And suddenly everything felt okay to me. She was sorry and sounded like she meant it. That was a big deal to me because deep down I didn't think she really cared about how she'd hurt me the way she did.
I'm glad we're getting to know each other as friends again. We do a lot of laughing and just clicked really well when we were together. I'm looking forward to having that again, even without the dating part. And I think she is, too.
And we even discussed a Mia, Colby, and Lola playdate, which I know would make my little Mi Mi very happy. ^_^
