thankfulAs silly as this is, chasing her around the house made me realize how truly fortunate I am. I'm stressed about finances, but when you look at the grand picture, I have a lot going for me.
This morning I stood at the kitchen sink and washed the dishes from Monica's visit. As I carefully rinsed a wine glass, I reflected on the events of the week. It really was the most amazing time that I've had in quite a while. I can't remeber the last time I was that happy.
One of my favorite moments was when I made Monica a candlelight dinner. She was upstairs laying down and was so stunned when I called to her. She looked so surprised and happy as she walked into the dining room.
Heh heh-- we even had wine. Anyone who knows me knows that I don't know a damn thing about wine. I don't even know how to cook. (At least not from scratch) So a simple thing as a surprise dinner actually takes a bit of effort on my part.
When Monica got ready to get her bags from my car at the airport, she looked at me, touched my cheek, her eyes shining, and said, "Liz, no one has ever treated me as well as you do. Thank you so much for the most amazing week and for being in my life. I love you..."
*sigh*
I miss her so much. Especially sitting here early in the morning. I want nothing more than to just snuggle in bed with her, my face buried in her neck, breathing in her scent, the feeling of her body resting peacefully.
As sad as I am to be apart from her, I know how truly lucky I am to even have someone to think about doing such things with. I take comfort in that as I curl up in my bed at night, Mia purring while I gently pet her.
Hopefully Moni and I are meant to be together and we'll eventually find ourselves spending each and every night together. : )
